Dear friends and readers, when I was invited to join this blog as part of the team of authors, my first question to them was..”What do you want me to write?” They told me that this blog is forhangeng and everything about Han Geng..hehehe..!! Nothing else but only Han Geng..!! A tall order indeed..! Looking back, I am amazed and amused that I have a lot of things to write about Han Geng..hehehe! I thought that somehow, somewhere there will be a time when I run out of topics to write on Han Geng..but on the contrary, the more I study about him and analyse his character and nature..(hehehe..like I am studying a specimen..!) I began to have ideas on what topics to write..!
The other thing is that, I get to know Gengfans and readers here and was able to share my perspectives of Han Geng with them. I was able to make friends with some of them online and through Facebook..Some of them emailed me privately to ask questions like those controversial kinds..through this kind of interactions, I learned more about them and they about me.hehehe..!! At least, I was able to do my part in helping them to understand more about Han Geng..heehee..! At least I was able to make good friends and spazz about him from time to time..When some of them found out my age, they started to call me “jie” well close enough though I am muchhhhhhhhh older..hahaha!! good to feel young with them..hahaha..! People say age is only a number and I agree..!!
Now this little girl, Rizka, I get to know her when she was frustrated being the only one defending Han Geng in Twitter..She and Smile would go on Twitter and furiously defend Han Geng there..for me I was too lazy and couldn’t be bothered with those senseless arguments…and besides I don’t know how to operate Twitter..hehehe..!! I am not that proficient in IT yet, just the basics..hehehe!
Now, while Han Geng is busy snow-boarding in Sapporo and sky-diving, surfing in Hawaii, I would like to share with you something Geng related…one very special Gengfan who was able to have two personal encounters with him..hehehehe..
Dear friends, as you read the testimony of this special Gengfan, try to read it with an open mind and a kind heart. One need not try to question what has befallen her, but to understand and see it from her view point. Or you can opt to bypass this post if you feel that it may have infringed on your personal reading space…hehehe!! Thank You..!!
When you have done reading it, try to live life to the fullest with what we were given and use it for the benefit of mankind.
AT LEAST, I HAVE MET HIM IN MY LIFE…
Sickness is just a sickness. We do not even know how God gives it to us .. When we think that we are healthy, when in fact, we’re not.. we think that we have nothing serious in our body, when in fact, there is something wrong with it.., we think that we really have fun, when in fact, our body can’t take it anymore…!
Actually it’s kind of ashamed(embarrassed) to share how this could be happening to me.. cancer… The first time, I heard of it, I thought of only the words ‘ death ‘.. ‘ short life ‘… ‘suffering’ and so on.. hehehe.. but someone once told me that, ‘as long as you live your own life, do not think of what others say to you, or about you. Just enjoy your life.. don’t take it seriously(as in focusing on it daily)..’ I agree with that… (thank you, friend)
And yes.. I have a great boyfriend who will always be with me at all times when I need him (thank you for 10-years of relationship with me)… I have so many friends who can give me happiness.. I have so many students who keep me smiling all the time when I teach them.. I have so many family members who can strengthen me whenever I need them.. and this person, Hangeng.. is one of the reasons for that.. thank you that I have known you… Hangeng sansui… our 3 years old boy.. your smile is number 1..
Running towards Hangeng to many countries.. following him to many events he held.. fansmeeting.. yes.. that’s it.. it’s all for Indonesian Gengfans.. I want Hangeng to know that he has his fans in Indonesia.. it doesn’t matter if I struggle hard and do it by myself.. it doesn’t matter when no one helps me as long as Hangeng knows that he has his Indonesian Gengfans here.. it doesn’t matter when no one knows how hard I go towards him and God helped me, giving me so many chances of having a very close interaction with him.. teaching him Indonesian words… ‘terima kasih’.
Can I say that I sacrifice my health going to meet him but he paid me back.. God helps me for sure for that.. his hug, his warm smile, his greetings to me, are all for me.. can I say that all of those are ‘my medicine’? That hug, is for Indonesian gengfans.. that smile, is for Indonesian Gengfans.. that word ‘terima kasih’, is for Indonesian Gengfans..
Starting from Hangeng Singapore fanmeeting, I had never travelled in a long trip before.. I felt a bit dizzy when I started to sit in the airplane.. even in fansigning place, I thought that there was an earthquake.. the mall was shaking.. my foot was shaking too.. so dizzy… even my friend said, ‘are you okay? You look so pale…’ I just smiled and did not answer her.. when I walked at the mall (the fansigning place), again, I wanted to fall down.. but I saw Gengfans were happy and screamed looking at Hangeng… I thought that it was just a common feeling.. I ignored it..
After I return from Singapore, I was busy again preparing myself for the trip to Thailand – fan-meeting..In Thailand,I felt better..no pain…It was one of the great vacations for me.
Presently, I am in charge of college activity and also doing charity in the name of Hangeng Indonesia..
A week or two, after coming back from Thailand, my nose hurt.. I had nosebleed everyday when I woke up in the morning and in the afternoon..I thought, maybe there was something wrong with my body.. then I went to the hospital for a check-up.. the doctor said that I was just too exhausted and need to take a long rest..
The condition became worse after coming back from Hong Kong fan-meeting. Even at Hong Kong airport, I covered half my face with a scarf so that no one could see my nose.. (I could not get up from bed for 2 days.) My friends advised me to go to the doctor.. and from that, doctor said I had a serious disease.. I could not believe that.. ! Till now, I still believe that I do not have a sickness,just like nothing happens.. I believe that I am okay.. and I will be okay…!(positive thinking),that I will not need surgery or whatever. My best friend, who knows of my sickness, asked me, ” Are you really doing that charity by yourself and said that it’s done by HangengIndonesia?? You do it alone!! Don’t be too generous.. you are sick.. you do it all, by yourself.. don’t say that it’s done by HangengIndonesia.. it’s you..’ I just replied her, ‘ I know.. but it’s kind of selfish to show it..
I don’t do that charity because of Hangeng.. it’s because of God.. but it’s my way to introduce Hangeng.. kinda difficult because few people know him.. that’s my priority to make him go international.. being known by Indonesian people..’
Disease… is just a disease.. it’s a challenge for me to be able to do anything. Cancer?? I won’t let it bother me living my life to the fullest… many friends ask me not to take it seriously.. yes, I have nose bleeding everyday.. I am bald now no hair.. I BELIEVE I will be cured..! Death?? God has it’s plan for it.. no one knows when He will take this life.. now, today, tomorrow??
All I know is that, I am successful in introducing Indonesia to Hangeng.. at least he knows who I am.. at least he remembers the words I have said to him.. at least he even gives his smile to me.. at least he has even said something to me.. and for me.. at least I have met him in my life.. at least my dream about him is becoming true.. then I can say that ‘I am proud being a part of Gengfans family’
I don’t write this so that some of you will feel pity for me or something.. I only can say that I just keep in my mind that I am healthy then I am healthy… because I just need that.. a relief.. that I can live for a long time.. to see Hangeng with his wife.. to see Hangeng with his children.. to see Hangeng lives happily and gets all his dreams… to see Hangeng coming to see his Indonesian Gengfans, even I am not there...
My determination to bring Hangeng to Indonesia never stops… I promise that to myself, for Indonesian gengfans…. Gengfans in China, Hongkong, Singapore, Taiwan, and Japan, who knows me,, they all love me, because they really feel my hardwork and big effort to bring Hangeng to Indonesia…
Hangeng… “Terima Kasih”..you give me a heart-warmed Gengfans Family.. *bow*
After reading that, I hope we that can be more generous, selfless and in understanding others..As Rizka said, do not feel pity for her..It’s her own “medicine”; a relief for her to do the things that she has always wanted to do..life is unpredictable and short. From her countenance, she looks fine..so cheery, so accommodating and so vivacious..! Let us cheer for her and give her our blessings…Let us also pray for her good health and healing…
Rizka…Jiayou..!! Fighting..!! Bersemangat..!!
NOTE : Another New Year..! Contend/Compete for Greater Progress/ Improvement..!(Chinese characters on the comic picture) In my own understanding of that Chinese phrase…RACE FOR A GREATER IMPROVEMENT..!
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